Elapsed

Elapsed

I try to hold back forming tears
A culmination of my fears
How easy faith can slip away
I watch it go with yesterday

Not sure if I can get up now
And find those things that must be found
Just let me lie here on the floor
And drown in all that has been torn

I look around and scream inside
From all these rules we must abide
I slowly, gently, fall from grace
The years I’ve spent feel like a waste

Can’t ever know what happens next
I’m always short of second best
Don’t even dream of being one
I get off the floor and start to run

Away from all that frightens me
From the blurriness surrounding me
Forgetting momentarily to breathe
Forgetting, always, to believe

I’ve never been so terrified
My heart bursts fiercely from the inside
I try to breathe, but I’ve lost my faith
Where are those dreams I long to create?

-sweetsweetcandy

Only Words

They all look at her with those eyes
The ones that tend to criticise
How can they make her feel so low?
In this life, she walks alone

They do not hate, but pretend to love
By telling her that life is tough
They crush the dreams she holds inside
And she pretends that she won’t cry

It’s not the words they say to her
They are, after all, just merely words
It’s what they make her feel today
The hope they destroy from yesterday

So then she begins to look around
This world to which she’s inevitably bound
They tell her she can’t be something rare
Life’s that way, life’s never fair

Don’t strive for something you’ll never get
It’ll only bring you more regret
What are the chances you’re unique?
They tell her that she can’t compete

And slowly, she begins to see
Perhaps they’re right with what they mean
Her dreams begin to slip away
Her hope long gone with yesterday

She’s not a child anymore
But her faith can still be torn
Especially when you say to her
All these thoughts disguised as words

So please be careful what you say
The thoughts you have inside you today
They may be what you know and have seen
But they can also destroy a childhood dream.

-sweetsweetcandy

More Clark and Lana

Here’s some more old-school clana. It got me all nostalgic making ‘em. Hope you like <3

Please credit if you post/use on another site <3

Clana

Two new clana wallies! Yay! These are old-school, but I was in an old-school mood. Going through the caps made me sort of fall in love with this couple all over again. Not that I ever fell out of love, but it was a nice reminder of how it all began. Enjoy <3

Soulmates

Finally, some new Clark/Lana stuff! These are pretty simple, but I haven’t made art in so long I’ve gotten rusty. Hope you like them <3

Soulmates

“Do you believe in soulmates?”
Her best friend said to her
She thought about it carefully
That controversial word

“Well,” she said, “when I was five,
my mother said to me:
You’ll have your own Prince Charming one day,
and you’ll both live happily”

“Then I was ten and liked this boy
He teased me and called me names
Before telling my friend he loved her more
And the teasing was just a game

“Then sixteen came rolling around
I liked boys of different taste
But he dumped me the first time we went out
Coz I wouldn’t go to second base

“When I finally turned twenty-one
I thought this must be it
Prince Charming on his motorbike
With his devilish smile and wit

“But he fell in love with another girl
If ‘love’ meant blonder hair
I tossed him to the sidewalk
And pretended I don’t care

“I almost got married at twenty-five
But on our wedding day
He said to me he couldn’t commit,
And told me he was gay

“So now I’m turning thirty,
And all that’s left of me
Are remnants of some scattered hope
But how futile hope can be”

She turned to her friend and said to her
“I may never be a wife
There may never be the perfect man
But this friendship is for life

“So my answer is yes, I do believe
That soulmates do exist
It’s you and me, for eternity
That’s exactly what friendship is.”

-sweetsweetcandy

Five

I know, I know, I haven’t posted anything for a looong time. The last few weeks of uni are just like ARRGH! But now it’s over *phew* and I have about three months before I’m off on exchange to study in Toronto till the end of the year! SO excited. I just have to get through all this application anxiety and getting it all together before I leave. I need to research exactly how cold it will be and if I might actually DIE from the cold as some people have been telling me O_o  haha. Anyway, I’m so sorry but I only have two poems for you and to be honest, I don’t like them that much! Hopefully I can get some more fanart and better poetry up before I leave.

Five

I sit here silently pondering
Wake up secretly wondering
The answers to all that plagues me
Swallows me whole and becomes me

We’re not born to believe in enough
It’s always a challenge and life is tough
It’s easier to aim high when you are five
It’s so easy then to feel alive

Dreams are still dreams than can’t be crushed
All is seen with your eyes filled with love
You got the world locked safely in your pocket
Your parents with you in your heart locket

Ten years is so faraway when you are five
Still learning when to wait, and when to dive
No need to be great and have something to show
There’s just love, warmth and learning to grow

Everything is beautiful in your eyes
Untainted by those wicked lies
There’s nothing quite like innocence
Like crouching to smell a flower’s scent

Don’t care I’m wearing a princess dress
Because mummy says that I look best
On top of the world is daddy’s shoulders
Not the milestones that come when we’re older

Your laugh can cure the saddest frown
Cookies excite you when you’re feeling down
Dunking them in milk makes your day
Why can’t life always be this way?

If I could have a single wish
It would be just only this
The ability to see through my eyes
The world I saw when I was five.

-sweetsweetcandy

Shining Star

She wants to be a shining star
The world to know her name
Ten years old and not afraid
To want success and fame

Then on her sixteenth birthday
Her father said to the girl
“Your dream is foolish, find another
place to be in the world”

She loved her father very much
He was a good and decent man
So she gave up her dream that day
And made some different plans

Somewhere else another girl
Had the same dream too
But her father said to her that day
“You can be whatever you want to”

The first girl went on to have
A fairly successful life
But the dream she gave up was always there
Resting at the back of her mind

The second girl struggled with her dream
And lived difficultly for a long time
But with every setback, she got up again
The dream always clear in her mind

The moral of the story isn’t to be a superstar
It’s to not be afraid to want what you want
No matter who you are

The first girl took the safer route
And her life, it did go far
But the second girl fought hard for the dream
And now she’s that shining star.

-sweetsweetcandy

<3

Mother’s Day

Thought I’d share the poem I wrote for my mum for Mother’s Day tomorrow. I printed it out, cut it onto pretty paper and glued it into the card. A really nice and more “personal” gift if anyone’s out of ideas. Anyway, I haven’t written her a ‘Mother’s Day’ poem since I was, like, twelve, so pardon me if my skills are rusty, but I wanted my mum to know how much I appreciate all she’s done for me and continues to do.

For My Mother

It seems there’s never a right time, mum
To say thank you for giving me:
A hug when I cry
A kiss when I’m sad

For making me a hot drink on cold nights
When you’d rather be warm in bed
For asking me about my day
When your day has not been the best

For worrying about my aches and pains
When you have your own to contend with
For the strength you have
That keeps me going everyday

There is no greater chef than you
No one more courageous
No hugs warmer than those you provide
No words wiser than the ones you give

You have always had the answers
To all that worries me
Yet you always tell me to believe in myself
And I believe you

To me, you are perfect,
And nothing you do
Can make me think otherwise
Because you are my mother

And years from now
I will still look at you
And hope to be just half
Of what you are to me.

-sweetsweetcandy

Hope you enjoyed. Feel free to use it for Mother’s Day. Or use it as inspiration to write your own for your mum. They love it, trust me

More Supernatural

I don’t know why I don’t make more arts of these boys. They’re so freaking hot O_O

Version 1

Version 2

A Walk to Remember #2

Two ‘A Walk to Remember’ wallpapers (click to make them bigger). Still adore this movie. It breaks my heart and I cry every time, but it’s something beautiful. Enjoy <3 And also a poem at the end.

First Love

How would I have ever known?
The existence of a universe
So different to all that I’ve learnt
Is somehow found in you.

Every breath I take has purpose
Because I breathe for you.
Every beat of my heart
Is a call to your name.

They don’t warn how you can fall
So fearlessly, so boldly
Have I ever felt so powerless?
Have I ever felt so invincible?

I wonder when I’ll fly for you
Because you give me angel wings
Your presence takes me high
And my place becomes that of stars.

Will you look into my eyes?
Will you whisper my name?
Tell me everything you want to be
And I’ll be it with you.

I’ve often wondered
Why love songs are written
And now we dance together
To lyrics of our own.

Do you know you’re beautiful?
How I tremble for you so?
Terrified of losing you
Of one day letting go.

You kiss my shy lips
And I’m not sure what to say
What is it called – this feeling
When I feel this way?

I’m completely hopeless
When it comes to love
So I hold onto your hand
And dive headfirst.

And when that day ever comes
That we might say goodbye
Thank you for showing me
The wonders of a first love

I might be angry and I might cry
But know that I loved you
And I’ll hold onto the love you showed me
So that I might do it better next time.

-sweetsweetcandy

Unrequited Love

Unrequited Love

She thinks that she can love him
Enough to make him see
The reflection that stares back at her
The good that she can be

She’s pretty like a flower
Blooming in the spring
Yet no matter how she blooms for him
He won’t ever feel a thing

Her smile is radiant like the sun
She lights up every room
Yet no matter how she shines for him
He won’t ever feel it too

Her heart is like the ocean
Generosity limitless
Yet no matter if she’d die for her friends
He won’t ever see her best

She thinks to herself how perfect she is
For him in every way
Yet no matter how she dreams at night
Those words he’ll never say

She can’t help who she falls for
She can’t ever make him feel
The feelings that she holds inside
To him they’re just not real

Her love is like a single key
Gave away without a cost
Yet no matter if he holds it with him
To her, it’s always lost.

-sweetsweetcandy

Rainbow

Red is the colour of my heart
The way it beats sets you apart
Whenever you are close to me
No faster can my red heart beat

Yellow is the colour of the sun
And beneath its rays I would run
Across the entire world for you
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do

Pink is the way that my cheeks blush
They always get that kind of flush
Every time you talk to me
I try to hide so you won’t see

Blue is the colour of the sky
And also the colour of your eyes
I see a galaxy when I look into
Your beautiful eyes of ocean blue

Orange is the colour of a flame
The way it burns, the way it claims
The warmth it provides when you are cold
Like love, it’s fiery and it’s bold

Green is the colour of the grass
The way it seems to grow so fast
Just like all relationships too
We never realise until we do

Purple is my favourite one
It’s not the colour of the sun
Not the colour of a flame
Or the way my red heart pains

I like it just because I do
Much like how I’m in love with you
I don’t know how, I don’t know why
But you paint a rainbow in my sky.

-sweetsweetcandy

Chocolate Muffin

No, this is not a recipe for an awesome chocolate muffin =P While I do live for sites like tastespotting.com, my dedication to living healthily stops me from making the fatty deliciousness of baked desserts (although I do cave occasionally *yum*). A couple of KK banners I should have posted a while ago, sorry, and a poem at the end that will explain the whole ‘chocolate muffin’ thing. Yeah…sadly, it’s based on a real dream I had O_o

Credit if you use these on another site.

Chocolate Muffin

I saw you eating a chocolate muffin
Just the other day
It didn’t occur to me at the time
Exactly what I’d say

Then I dreamt a dream of you
With no intention at all
I bought that chocolate muffin
You so scrumptiously adore

I walked into the classroom
And slid it over to you
Wrapped in its brown paper bag
You didn’t know what to do

I said to you “do you want it?”
For “I’m not hungry today”
Hoping foolishly to win your heart
To hear words that you don’t say

I don’t remember what happened next
Dreams are strange like that
I woke up feeling, just to myself
That I’d gone completely mad

I hope I said something witty
I hope you smiled at me
I hope we flirted over the muffin
And you asked me out to tea

Perhaps this will give me the strength
To stop by the café next week
Right before I see you in class
And you sit next to me

I’ll buy you a muffin, a chocolate one
And slide it over to you, and say
“Hey there, I bought a muffin today,
I thought you might like one too.”

-sweetsweetcandy