CLANA DAY October 16th 2009

I know, I know, I’ve disappeared off the face of the earth. But like I said, I’m on exchange in Toronto, Canada. I finally visited the land of “Smallville” (at least, where it is shot), and let me tell you, Vancouver is gorgeous. However, I’m back in Toronto studying, studying, studying. Whew, you’d never think uni was so much work here!

My excuse for lack of fanart is I don’t have Photoshop on my Macbook! As for lack of poetry, I don’t have time! It’s been crazy hectic ever since I arrived in late August. Has a month or so flown by that quickly? O_o

Anyway, the point of this post is to let all you clana fans out there know that this Friday the 16th of October is CLANA DAY. Please join us for a day of fun and clana goodies at the Sweet forum:

http://lanaclark.suddenlaunch.com/index.cgi

There’s a lot of events going on and let me tell you, it will bring back many joyful memories of the good ol’ days of Clark and Lana. So click on the link, get involved, be there and even contribute if you can! It will be so fun! I will be there. I may not be able to offer up any fanart, as much as I desperately want to (believe me, I’m so fretting over having no Photoshop, especially seeing everybody else contribute their amazing artworks for the event), but there are other ways to get involved.

I hope to see you there. I’m sure many of you clana fans already are members of Sweet, but if you’re not, it’s about time you became one and joined in the festivities. You won’t regret it, I promise! Everyone there is just as lovely as our beloved couple itself.

I wish I had a huge banner to promote this event even better…but…like I said, no Photoshop *sigh* Words will have to do. See you all on Friday @ Sweet!

Extra-ordinary

It’s been a while..I’m preparing for my exchange to Canada next month O_o I’m leaving so soon and I still haven’t gotten it all together! Time to panic? I think so! Surprisingly, I’m even more worried about what I’ll be doing AFTER I come back from this trip. This is my last year at university and I have all these things I can picture myself doing in the future, but with no idea how exactly to get there (it doesn’t help that none of them are exactly ’secure’ type occupations, although I think this is both a good and bad kind of thing for me). Anyway, I just have two poems for you today. Enjoy <3

Extra-ordinary

From the moment we are born
Eyes open for the very first time
First breath let out into the world
First thoughts to enter our mind

That’s the day your life begins
But we are never told
That every choice is another second
Every day we are getting old

Dreams can seem so easy
When you see it through the light
But look at it for long enough
And it fades out of sight

Your will is strong on some days
Then someone puts you down
A word can change that smile
Into an incurable frown

So as I thought about all this
About all I could be
I wondered about the line between
Ordinary and extraordinary

I’m not a child anymore
My teen years are falling away
They didn’t tell me my first day on earth
That life would turn out this way

My friends are finally growing up
And I find we’re drifting apart
I’m left alone to figure out
What truly lies in my heart

And I realise that I’m terrified
Of being just ordinary
Is that really all there is?
The ending to my life’s story?

I don’t feel I’ve moved the world
I don’t feel I’ve changed a thing
Tell me what the first step is
To flying with my own wings

They didn’t tell me that very first day
How terrified I would be
They didn’t tell me I’d have to grow up
And put a definition on me

Dreams can seem so easy
When you see it through the light
So now I have to stop squinting my eyes
Because behind the fog, there’s life.

-sweetsweetcandy

The Hardest Goodbye

My hardest goodbye was not with a boy
It was not done with a broken heart
It was everything opposite to what I thought
When it all finally fell apart

Seven friends promised on graduation day
That their friendships would stay alive
No matter the distance or the time
They promised to stay in each other’s lives

The first year passed by quickly
And that’s when change begins
It leaks into those unseen cracks
The foundation of where friendship begins

Who am I to criticise change?
I know I’m not the same
And at the very end of it all
None of us are to blame

People grow up and want different things
It seems easy to let go of the past
The part I don’t really quite understand
Is how it all happened so fast

One by one we slipped away
And those still left behind
Found that it’s not how it used to be
How we laughed and cried those times

We don’t know how to talk anymore
We don’t know how to be
I’m afraid to tell them my secrets
I used to divulge openly

How did we become such strangers?
How did it come to this?
Awkward hugs and smiles
What is it that I missed?

The hardest goodbye isn’t goodbye itself
It’s admitting it’s time to let go
Trying to hold something together
That died a long time ago

But years from now, I’ll still smile
At a picture of my old friends and me
I’ll smile not for the hardest goodbye
But, always, for the memories.

- sweetsweetcandy

Elapsed

Elapsed

I try to hold back forming tears
A culmination of my fears
How easy faith can slip away
I watch it go with yesterday

Not sure if I can get up now
And find those things that must be found
Just let me lie here on the floor
And drown in all that has been torn

I look around and scream inside
From all these rules we must abide
I slowly, gently, fall from grace
The years I’ve spent feel like a waste

Can’t ever know what happens next
I’m always short of second best
Don’t even dream of being one
I get off the floor and start to run

Away from all that frightens me
From the blurriness surrounding me
Forgetting momentarily to breathe
Forgetting, always, to believe

I’ve never been so terrified
My heart bursts fiercely from the inside
I try to breathe, but I’ve lost my faith
Where are those dreams I long to create?

-sweetsweetcandy

Only Words

They all look at her with those eyes
The ones that tend to criticise
How can they make her feel so low?
In this life, she walks alone

They do not hate, but pretend to love
By telling her that life is tough
They crush the dreams she holds inside
And she pretends that she won’t cry

It’s not the words they say to her
They are, after all, just merely words
It’s what they make her feel today
The hope they destroy from yesterday

So then she begins to look around
This world to which she’s inevitably bound
They tell her she can’t be something rare
Life’s that way, life’s never fair

Don’t strive for something you’ll never get
It’ll only bring you more regret
What are the chances you’re unique?
They tell her that she can’t compete

And slowly, she begins to see
Perhaps they’re right with what they mean
Her dreams begin to slip away
Her hope long gone with yesterday

She’s not a child anymore
But her faith can still be torn
Especially when you say to her
All these thoughts disguised as words

So please be careful what you say
The thoughts you have inside you today
They may be what you know and have seen
But they can also destroy a childhood dream.

-sweetsweetcandy

More Clark and Lana

Here’s some more old-school clana. It got me all nostalgic making ‘em. Hope you like <3

Please credit if you post/use on another site <3

Clana

Two new clana wallies! Yay! These are old-school, but I was in an old-school mood. Going through the caps made me sort of fall in love with this couple all over again. Not that I ever fell out of love, but it was a nice reminder of how it all began. Enjoy <3

Soulmates

Finally, some new Clark/Lana stuff! These are pretty simple, but I haven’t made art in so long I’ve gotten rusty. Hope you like them <3

Soulmates

“Do you believe in soulmates?”
Her best friend said to her
She thought about it carefully
That controversial word

“Well,” she said, “when I was five,
my mother said to me:
You’ll have your own Prince Charming one day,
and you’ll both live happily”

“Then I was ten and liked this boy
He teased me and called me names
Before telling my friend he loved her more
And the teasing was just a game

“Then sixteen came rolling around
I liked boys of different taste
But he dumped me the first time we went out
Coz I wouldn’t go to second base

“When I finally turned twenty-one
I thought this must be it
Prince Charming on his motorbike
With his devilish smile and wit

“But he fell in love with another girl
If ‘love’ meant blonder hair
I tossed him to the sidewalk
And pretended I don’t care

“I almost got married at twenty-five
But on our wedding day
He said to me he couldn’t commit,
And told me he was gay

“So now I’m turning thirty,
And all that’s left of me
Are remnants of some scattered hope
But how futile hope can be”

She turned to her friend and said to her
“I may never be a wife
There may never be the perfect man
But this friendship is for life

“So my answer is yes, I do believe
That soulmates do exist
It’s you and me, for eternity
That’s exactly what friendship is.”

-sweetsweetcandy

Five

I know, I know, I haven’t posted anything for a looong time. The last few weeks of uni are just like ARRGH! But now it’s over *phew* and I have about three months before I’m off on exchange to study in Toronto till the end of the year! SO excited. I just have to get through all this application anxiety and getting it all together before I leave. I need to research exactly how cold it will be and if I might actually DIE from the cold as some people have been telling me O_o  haha. Anyway, I’m so sorry but I only have two poems for you and to be honest, I don’t like them that much! Hopefully I can get some more fanart and better poetry up before I leave.

Five

I sit here silently pondering
Wake up secretly wondering
The answers to all that plagues me
Swallows me whole and becomes me

We’re not born to believe in enough
It’s always a challenge and life is tough
It’s easier to aim high when you are five
It’s so easy then to feel alive

Dreams are still dreams than can’t be crushed
All is seen with your eyes filled with love
You got the world locked safely in your pocket
Your parents with you in your heart locket

Ten years is so faraway when you are five
Still learning when to wait, and when to dive
No need to be great and have something to show
There’s just love, warmth and learning to grow

Everything is beautiful in your eyes
Untainted by those wicked lies
There’s nothing quite like innocence
Like crouching to smell a flower’s scent

Don’t care I’m wearing a princess dress
Because mummy says that I look best
On top of the world is daddy’s shoulders
Not the milestones that come when we’re older

Your laugh can cure the saddest frown
Cookies excite you when you’re feeling down
Dunking them in milk makes your day
Why can’t life always be this way?

If I could have a single wish
It would be just only this
The ability to see through my eyes
The world I saw when I was five.

-sweetsweetcandy

Shining Star

She wants to be a shining star
The world to know her name
Ten years old and not afraid
To want success and fame

Then on her sixteenth birthday
Her father said to the girl
“Your dream is foolish, find another
place to be in the world”

She loved her father very much
He was a good and decent man
So she gave up her dream that day
And made some different plans

Somewhere else another girl
Had the same dream too
But her father said to her that day
“You can be whatever you want to”

The first girl went on to have
A fairly successful life
But the dream she gave up was always there
Resting at the back of her mind

The second girl struggled with her dream
And lived difficultly for a long time
But with every setback, she got up again
The dream always clear in her mind

The moral of the story isn’t to be a superstar
It’s to not be afraid to want what you want
No matter who you are

The first girl took the safer route
And her life, it did go far
But the second girl fought hard for the dream
And now she’s that shining star.

-sweetsweetcandy

<3

Mother’s Day

Thought I’d share the poem I wrote for my mum for Mother’s Day tomorrow. I printed it out, cut it onto pretty paper and glued it into the card. A really nice and more “personal” gift if anyone’s out of ideas. Anyway, I haven’t written her a ‘Mother’s Day’ poem since I was, like, twelve, so pardon me if my skills are rusty, but I wanted my mum to know how much I appreciate all she’s done for me and continues to do.

For My Mother

It seems there’s never a right time, mum
To say thank you for giving me:
A hug when I cry
A kiss when I’m sad

For making me a hot drink on cold nights
When you’d rather be warm in bed
For asking me about my day
When your day has not been the best

For worrying about my aches and pains
When you have your own to contend with
For the strength you have
That keeps me going everyday

There is no greater chef than you
No one more courageous
No hugs warmer than those you provide
No words wiser than the ones you give

You have always had the answers
To all that worries me
Yet you always tell me to believe in myself
And I believe you

To me, you are perfect,
And nothing you do
Can make me think otherwise
Because you are my mother

And years from now
I will still look at you
And hope to be just half
Of what you are to me.

-sweetsweetcandy

Hope you enjoyed. Feel free to use it for Mother’s Day. Or use it as inspiration to write your own for your mum. They love it, trust me

More Supernatural

I don’t know why I don’t make more arts of these boys. They’re so freaking hot O_O

Version 1

Version 2

A Walk to Remember #2

Two ‘A Walk to Remember’ wallpapers (click to make them bigger). Still adore this movie. It breaks my heart and I cry every time, but it’s something beautiful. Enjoy <3 And also a poem at the end.

First Love

How would I have ever known?
The existence of a universe
So different to all that I’ve learnt
Is somehow found in you.

Every breath I take has purpose
Because I breathe for you.
Every beat of my heart
Is a call to your name.

They don’t warn how you can fall
So fearlessly, so boldly
Have I ever felt so powerless?
Have I ever felt so invincible?

I wonder when I’ll fly for you
Because you give me angel wings
Your presence takes me high
And my place becomes that of stars.

Will you look into my eyes?
Will you whisper my name?
Tell me everything you want to be
And I’ll be it with you.

I’ve often wondered
Why love songs are written
And now we dance together
To lyrics of our own.

Do you know you’re beautiful?
How I tremble for you so?
Terrified of losing you
Of one day letting go.

You kiss my shy lips
And I’m not sure what to say
What is it called – this feeling
When I feel this way?

I’m completely hopeless
When it comes to love
So I hold onto your hand
And dive headfirst.

And when that day ever comes
That we might say goodbye
Thank you for showing me
The wonders of a first love

I might be angry and I might cry
But know that I loved you
And I’ll hold onto the love you showed me
So that I might do it better next time.

-sweetsweetcandy