Just two pieces of poetry today. The first one is new. My mum shared with me a moment in her and more so her younger sister’s life and it really touched me. But I’m happy for those who read it to make of it what they want to. The second poem is an oldie I wrote about a year and a half ago when starting university. Enjoy <3
She Cries
It doesn’t feel so real to her
The emptiness carried inside
Locked within a cubicle
From the world she hides
She finds it hard to understand
The meaning of destiny
Waiting for the moment when
All she wants will be
But she doesn’t think this now
She drowns within her rain
The only thing that she can feel
Is immense, unbearable pain
The life she held within her
Has died the second time
Along with it she feels she’s gone
She feels it is a crime
She wonders if it’s all her fault
Did she do something wrong?
So sure she is that she did right
No mistakes were made along
Yet the hole inside is gaping
Life made, life lost again
She feels she will never be whole
Her heart will never mend
She holds onto her stomach
The cubicle opens wide
Her sister takes her in her arms
And says “it will be all right”
But she knows it’s just a comfort
Life won’t ever be the same
Her sister says it will happen
Today is just today
It doesn’t feel so real to her
For today she just might die
She holds onto her sister
And together they sit and cry.
- sweetsweetcandy
Everything’s Changing
As I sit here stuck between
Reality and dreams
I cannot tell what it is I feel
For nothing is what it seems
I wonder if it is because
I’m just too afraid
Of the challenges ahead of me
Of the past to fade
I wish so much for happiness
For my heart to bloom
To want the things I really want
For them to come so soon
Too caught up in the future
Yet unable to let go of the past
I’m living in a messed up world
So slow, yet so damn fast
Everyone is moving on
And I’m just left behind
I think my life is tragedy
My dreams I cannot find
My friends are growing up so fast
Exploring different worlds
Everything is changing now
Into a frightful swirl
Please stop and just remember me
For I’m still waiting here
Crying for a miracle
To rescue me from my fears
I want to grow up and be strong
Survive in this tough world
Yet inside I feel so small
I still feel like a girl
My feet are running to keep up
It seems they never will
Why is everyone so smart?
And I’m just stuck here still?
Caught between a grown up
And a little girl
I wish for something better
To spin around and swirl
Everything is changing
Everyone is gone
I’m here all alone
Singing my sad song
I hope for someone to rescue me
To sweep me off my feet
I’m beginning to realise reality
Is a different sort of beat
Nobody can rescue me
From what lies ahead
I only have myself
To get through all this dread
To love, to learn, to be complete
Only I can do
To remember I must believe in myself
To believe in others too
And maybe one day I can smile
About the life I lead
I’ll think to myself about it
That this is all I ever dreamed.
-sweetsweetcandy
