Elapsed

Elapsed

I try to hold back forming tears
A culmination of my fears
How easy faith can slip away
I watch it go with yesterday

Not sure if I can get up now
And find those things that must be found
Just let me lie here on the floor
And drown in all that has been torn

I look around and scream inside
From all these rules we must abide
I slowly, gently, fall from grace
The years I’ve spent feel like a waste

Can’t ever know what happens next
I’m always short of second best
Don’t even dream of being one
I get off the floor and start to run

Away from all that frightens me
From the blurriness surrounding me
Forgetting momentarily to breathe
Forgetting, always, to believe

I’ve never been so terrified
My heart bursts fiercely from the inside
I try to breathe, but I’ve lost my faith
Where are those dreams I long to create?

-sweetsweetcandy

Only Words

They all look at her with those eyes
The ones that tend to criticise
How can they make her feel so low?
In this life, she walks alone

They do not hate, but pretend to love
By telling her that life is tough
They crush the dreams she holds inside
And she pretends that she won’t cry

It’s not the words they say to her
They are, after all, just merely words
It’s what they make her feel today
The hope they destroy from yesterday

So then she begins to look around
This world to which she’s inevitably bound
They tell her she can’t be something rare
Life’s that way, life’s never fair

Don’t strive for something you’ll never get
It’ll only bring you more regret
What are the chances you’re unique?
They tell her that she can’t compete

And slowly, she begins to see
Perhaps they’re right with what they mean
Her dreams begin to slip away
Her hope long gone with yesterday

She’s not a child anymore
But her faith can still be torn
Especially when you say to her
All these thoughts disguised as words

So please be careful what you say
The thoughts you have inside you today
They may be what you know and have seen
But they can also destroy a childhood dream.

-sweetsweetcandy