It’s been a while..I’m preparing for my exchange to Canada next month O_o I’m leaving so soon and I still haven’t gotten it all together! Time to panic? I think so! Surprisingly, I’m even more worried about what I’ll be doing AFTER I come back from this trip. This is my last year at university and I have all these things I can picture myself doing in the future, but with no idea how exactly to get there (it doesn’t help that none of them are exactly ’secure’ type occupations, although I think this is both a good and bad kind of thing for me). Anyway, I just have two poems for you today. Enjoy <3
Extra-ordinary
From the moment we are born
Eyes open for the very first time
First breath let out into the world
First thoughts to enter our mind
That’s the day your life begins
But we are never told
That every choice is another second
Every day we are getting old
Dreams can seem so easy
When you see it through the light
But look at it for long enough
And it fades out of sight
Your will is strong on some days
Then someone puts you down
A word can change that smile
Into an incurable frown
So as I thought about all this
About all I could be
I wondered about the line between
Ordinary and extraordinary
I’m not a child anymore
My teen years are falling away
They didn’t tell me my first day on earth
That life would turn out this way
My friends are finally growing up
And I find we’re drifting apart
I’m left alone to figure out
What truly lies in my heart
And I realise that I’m terrified
Of being just ordinary
Is that really all there is?
The ending to my life’s story?
I don’t feel I’ve moved the world
I don’t feel I’ve changed a thing
Tell me what the first step is
To flying with my own wings
They didn’t tell me that very first day
How terrified I would be
They didn’t tell me I’d have to grow up
And put a definition on me
Dreams can seem so easy
When you see it through the light
So now I have to stop squinting my eyes
Because behind the fog, there’s life.
-sweetsweetcandy
The Hardest Goodbye
My hardest goodbye was not with a boy
It was not done with a broken heart
It was everything opposite to what I thought
When it all finally fell apart
Seven friends promised on graduation day
That their friendships would stay alive
No matter the distance or the time
They promised to stay in each other’s lives
The first year passed by quickly
And that’s when change begins
It leaks into those unseen cracks
The foundation of where friendship begins
Who am I to criticise change?
I know I’m not the same
And at the very end of it all
None of us are to blame
People grow up and want different things
It seems easy to let go of the past
The part I don’t really quite understand
Is how it all happened so fast
One by one we slipped away
And those still left behind
Found that it’s not how it used to be
How we laughed and cried those times
We don’t know how to talk anymore
We don’t know how to be
I’m afraid to tell them my secrets
I used to divulge openly
How did we become such strangers?
How did it come to this?
Awkward hugs and smiles
What is it that I missed?
The hardest goodbye isn’t goodbye itself
It’s admitting it’s time to let go
Trying to hold something together
That died a long time ago
But years from now, I’ll still smile
At a picture of my old friends and me
I’ll smile not for the hardest goodbye
But, always, for the memories.
- sweetsweetcandy
